Saturday, August 14, 2010

A memory of you


The trains pass by, people not too many
The silence reminds of the cheerful buzz..when you came
The world flashed by in black n white, it stopped for a second,
stopped for us.
A drop of orange spread through the abyss of black..
And the chhatim bloomed happy.
A night and a day to engrave an epic..
Was it true? The reality of the dream...was it real?

The bile rises when i look back now,
The tears soak me through n through,
Im still standing there, the trains pass by,
The haze solidifies and the sun doesn’t pry.

I see your shadow on the crashing waves,
Is it you? or is it me?
It merged, it mingled,
It blended till the end of time..and beyond.

It doesn't smell of the familiar chhatim any more,
It smells of blood, it smells of rust.
The rusty red flows through my veins and vitiates,

Are you listening, darling?

To the hollow footsteps of mine,
On the mud, in the woods,
Crushing the flowers you brought,
Leaving footprints of pain.

The black lightens,
with the darkening of the orange.
And here I am..stuck in limbo,
With the familiar, comfortable grey.

Grey..the one which never once failed me,
The memories, the warmth, the faith of it.
I'm living within the fort of it,till I'm found,
Hunted down....or rescued.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Green...


Green is the colour they say…but what about the shades?There are times it is the meadow green,and then the times it’s the poison colour of jealousy..the layers of it keeps eluding…it exists beneath the skin overflowing and overpowering at the hints dropped by the moods. Be it the happy sunshine day that the open space beckons…the splash of green is there, be it the rainy, drenched heart…the fresh green gushes…when the dark shadow overpowers, it turns to the ghastly sick green…it is underrated at times…with the brilliance of yellow, brightness of red, romance of pink, vastness of blue, strength of black, purity of white, attraction of gold and seduction of silver…but its there always, wrapped away underneath…softly enveloping at times…ominously engulfing in angry waves at times…it depicts life, growth, power and then jealousy, anger, deception… it promises life and yet keeps cunningly scheming..it speaks a language of its own…all of this in an attempt to understand which green paints me right now…it doesn’t reveal itself but doesn’t fade either…it might be a promise, it might be the falsehood of it…

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Undefined


I saw the dawn in your eyes,
I saw the night fade away..
Not a name to define it,
Not a promise to hold it strong,
Just the evidence of the moment,
when the universe stood still.

Surreal it was, despite the reality,
the moment gone,but still it lingers..
the silent rain drops,
the blushing dawn,
the undefined feelings,
and us..

Friday, October 16, 2009

It's a dream, but its true

She hates me, she doesn’t
Her eyes seem not to trust,
The fluid expressions confuse me..they scare me
The intensity of that emotion –
strong enough to burn me,strong enough to destroy me
She hates me, she doesn’t

I long to go back to the cocoon of her arms,
The warmth in her heart, the trust in her smile
The need when she calls me,the worry when im not there
She loves me, she doesn’t

She is right,isn’t she?
Im someone to hide in the closet of secrets
Someone who makes her doubt herself
Some one who fails,someone who errs
Maybe that someone is hers, maybe she isnt

Im hungry for love…I don’t think I am
I want to go back…I don’t need her
I don’t want to lose myself ..im scared I will
Id love to grant her wish, id love to stop breathing

Sunday, October 11, 2009

colour pallettes


I saw a blue,it waved at me,
I saw a green,it touched my face,
I saw a red,it flowed by,
I saw a purple,it embraced me...

They came,they went,
They danced all night.
Leavin their colourful footprints
By my bedside...

Morning came n along came grey,
With dashes of brown slashed through,
I looked in my heart in search of them,
A black smiled back...